Finishing the Course

​Some time has been spent seeking the Lord about what direction to take now, and His will concerning my service to Him. It was well spent, and He was gracious to give me some clear instruction. 
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I noticed again that those on the internet, who lurk and troll me, have made a lot of assumptions. These people would be better off to just be quiet and say nothing, but I've learned to expect the false accusations. Some of it is very cruel and I can tell those who are glad when they think I'm gone for good. If your one of them-your in for a disappointment.

I'll say a few things first before going into what God wants now from me. 
1. I've said this before- I don't expect anything different from any of you here on the internet or any other media source, except what I've seen in almost 10 years-and I'll add, I don't care. I am doing this for Jesus, not to please man, or to pretend to be something I'm not. 

2. I may be the least, and the worst servant of God, but I am called by Him, and a minister. I've been honest and open about my life, like Moses and Paul-I am a sinner, saved by the blood and mercy of Jesus Christ. I am walking in His forgiveness, and righteousness-my sins have been forgiven, and forgotten. The only thing I'll say about much of the cruel false accusations from my area-and the internet is-unless you've got some untouched video footage, or an untouched picture of me doing something wrong, and open sin-you'd be better off keeping your mouth shut. One day, you will answer to God for the false accusations. As a minister, I'll just remind you of that.

How about yours? Who is Jesus Christ to you? When you breath your last breath-do you have the assurance of heaven when you die?

3. When God called me to His service, he didn't add that I needed to be approved by any of you-nor was I given any instructions to seek your endorsements. My tally in this will be added up, when this is all over, and I stand before Him in Judgment day. You won't be there.

Now, from today on, my work and service to God will be on this site, and I will continue to preach/teach/witness from here. If anyone wants to see or hear anything from me-this is where I'll be until I'm dead, or Jesus returns. 

The Two Sparrows site will remain up-it's got a lot of resource material, and the Covid information page has a lot of links to important information that people will find there-that you won't find anywhere on mainstream media. If you want to know the truth about this pandemic, and the dangers and lies about the vaccines- go there:  http://twosparrowsministry.org/ , there's also a lot of blogs about caregiving, and the resource and inspiration pages are full of good information, and they will be changed seasonally. 

Again, the Lord brought up to me points about the life of Paul, and the early disciples, and what appeared to the world as their failures in their ministry-and let me know, that Two Sparrows was a witness, and in heaven, it is not seen as a failure-any more than Paul being a prisoner, and losing his head was a failure. He had remained faithful to the end. I continued to work and serve in Two Sparrows in the capacity I was able. I worked many hours, and many nights, all night long researching and finding information on the topics put in the posts in that site-much of the ministry I did in my local area-I will not speak about, it's between me, the people I ministered to, and God-that's the way it's supposed to stay. Those who feel they need to be applauded, and broadcast their works, can do that, but my Bible teaches me to not do that. Go to Matthew chapter six, and read it.

My ministry will now be centered as my service as a watchman, intercessor, and teacher. My work will be posted here. What I share, many I'm sure, will not like, I'm used to that. 

I'll start right out by sharing something that's happened to me in the last week-it will offend some, and some will probably nod their heads in a "yes", even if they would never admit it in public.

When I bought the house I'm in now seventeen years ago, I hoped and intended it to be a place to live out the rest of my life in some peace, and chose this place because it was back off the main roads, and in what seemed to be a quiet area. I soon learned, looks are deceiving. Various problems have occurred over the years, and there's been ongoing issues of one kind and another. Last week, atv's and loose dogs, cursing, filthy language and intentional harassment continued until I called the police and complained-what I expected happened, retaliation. It just got worse, with the consent and approval of the adults. 

This is why many who go through this, learn to say nothing and let it go on-they don't want to put up with the reaction they get-lawless rebellion. They also don't want to deal with the stress, and toll it takes on them.  I reported it again, as I've done a couple of times over the years, because I'm willing to take the hate, lies, false accusations and cursing, not just for myself, but for other's who are dealing with the same issues-and are afraid to say anything. I'm not afraid. I'll take your hate, the lies, and the retaliation- and be a witness to the problems going on in these towns and communities who cover up the real problems that cause this-which is sin. I won't go into the drugs/booze parties and backwoods drug deals-that would take up too much time right now.

I lost my temper with all of this going on, got in the truck and drove past their house too fast-giving them a sample of their conduct-this is the wrong thing to do. Two wrongs do not make a right. I had to repent, and ask the Lord's help, self control, and help to deal with it in the way He'd want. I'm just a human, and need His help like everyone else. Preachers make the mistake in trying to put on a front that we are free from temptations, and emotions-read the Bible for yourself. You'll find everyone God ever used, were just like you, and me. Nehemiah the prophet would get so mad, he cursed, smote (hit) some of them, and  pulled the beards out of some of those who inter-married with pagan nations. He also chased away those who defiled the priesthood, by marrying strange wives. I've not gone that far. Read it for yourself:

Neh 13:23  In those days also saw I Jews that had married wives of Ashdod, of Ammon, and of Moab: 
Neh 13:24  And their children spake half in the speech of Ashdod, and could not speak in the Jews' language, but according to the language of each people. 
Neh 13:25  And I contended with them, and cursed them, and smote certain of them, and plucked off their hair, and made them swear by God, saying, Ye shall not give your daughters unto their sons, nor take their daughters unto your sons, or for yourselves. 
Neh 13:28  And one of the sons of Joiada, the son of Eliashib the high priest, was son in law to Sanballat the Horonite: therefore I chased him from me. 
Neh 13:29  Remember them, O my God, because they have defiled the priesthood, and the covenant of the priesthood, and of the Levites. 

This gives a very different picture of who God calls and chooses to serve Him, than the world tries to portray. But, back to the story-

People who do these things, will many times twist the story and turn on you, accusing you of having mental problems. When people want to cover their sin, they will turn on you, and use false accusation, lies, and threaten. If you confront the issue, and their conduct-the result is more lies. These are the last days, spoken of in II Tim. ch. 3, people are lovers of themselves, boasters, arrogant, false accuser's, full of rebellion; and they teach their kids to be the same. What do I hope for these people? That they would come out of their blindness, and darkness, repent, and turn to Christ for salvation. I would not wish hell on my worst enemy. But, my Bible teaches me that there will not be any liars, nor people who teach a lie, found in heaven, nor anyone who practices sin.

I do care about people, and spent many years taking care of other people's grandparent's and parents, I know the consequences of sin, and what it does to people. It almost destroyed me, until I surrendered to Jesus, and gave my life to Him. I see the effects of it every day. But, my kind of love and concern is called "tough love", I tell people what they don't want to hear, because it's the truth. Truth is the only thing that opens the door to the beginning of a change of heart-if the person will let it. Jesus said He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. He has proven that to be true, in my life.

​This world doesn't need psychiatrists teaching their psyhco-babble, they need to pick up their Bible, read it, and start practicing the Ten Commandments, and the Sermon on the Mount. Psychiatrists and philosophers turn to what the world has to offer to solve their problems, and find they cannot achieve the real need-which is to be forgiven, and as Jesus teaches us- be "born again". Nicodemus marveled at this:
Joh 3:3  Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 
Joh 3:4  Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? 
Joh 3:5  Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 
Joh 3:6  That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 
Joh 3:7  Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. 
Joh 3:8  The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit. 

If the world did this, there would be no need for prisons, divorce courts, lawsuits, or mental institutions. If they were upheld, there would be consideration, peace, and manners exhibited. I may not like your personal preferences, but I respect your right to live your life-as you wish, and will go out of my way to allow you the right to live in peace, and leave you alone. The way of love is never rude, doesn't seek it's own way, and doesn't intentionally intrude on someone's private life-without their permission. 
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1Co 13:4  Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, 
1Co 13:5  Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; 
1Co 13:6  Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; 
1Co 13:7  Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 
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In the day we live in now, there is no respect for other's, nor is there any privacy. We live in Orwell's book 1984, but it's even worse than he portrayed it in the book now. 
I, and many other's are looking for, and hoping for the coming of the Lord. As lawlessness increases, our prayers increase for that day to come soon.
Lorna Couillard

During the times of seeking God's direction specifically on how to go on with this site, these verses and commentary  below were given. They helped get my feet set on a sure path.

                                                            Godlessness in the Last Days
2Ti 3:1  This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. 
2Ti 3:2  For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 
2Ti 3:3  Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, 
2Ti 3:4  Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God; 
2Ti 3:5  Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away. 
2Ti 3:6  For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts, 
2Ti 3:7  Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. 
But, when we go to verse 9, we are given the result, which will surely come:
2Ti 3:9  But they shall proceed no further: for their folly shall be manifest unto all men, as theirs also was.

The JFB commentary breaks this down well:

2 Timothy 3:9
they shall proceed no further — Though for a time (2Ti_2:16) “they shall advance or proceed (English Version, ‘increase’) unto more ungodliness,” yet there is a final limit beyond which they shall not be able to “proceed further” (Job_38:11; Rev_11:7, Rev_11:11). They themselves shall “wax worse and worse” (2Ti_3:13), but they shall at last be for ever prevented from seducing others. “Often malice proceeds deeper down, when it cannot extend itself” [Bengel].
their folly — literally, “dementation”: wise though they think themselves.
shall be manifest — Greek, “shall be brought forth from concealment into open day” [Bengel], (1Co_4:5).
as theirs ... was — as that of those magicians was, when not only could they no longer try to rival Moses in sending boils, but the boils fell upon themselves: so as to the lice (Exo_8:18; Exo_9:11).

                                                               A Worker Approved by God
2Ti 2:14  Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting of the hearers. 
2Ti 2:15  Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 

"The Revision reads, "Handling aright." The Greek word means, literally, "cutting straight." The thought, probably, is to present the truth clearly, truthfully, without blunders, and with an exactness which cannot be gainsaid."

2Ti 2:16  But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness. 

These are those who are actively opposed to the truth-and their actions and words reveal their rebellious, lawless spirits. These are to be avoided:

Psa 1:1  Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. See also Psa 26:4-5, Jer 15:17

                                                                 “APPROVED UNTO GOD”
The elect, 2Ti_2:10-13 : The Apostle sketches the experiences of the elect soul. It must endure, suffer, and die with Christ, that out of its surrender may come the truest, richest life, Joh_12:25. There is no path to lasting success save that of the cross and grave of Christ. It has been allotted to the redeemed in the divine program; each must tread it separately and with resolute purpose. But there is no doubt as to the sequel of a true life. The world of men may count it a failure, but God pledges Himself that as the pendulum swings here in the dark, it shall swing equally in yonder world of light. Three things are impossible with God-to die, to lie, and to fail the soul that trusts Him. Even when we cannot muster faith enough, His word of promise cannot be frustrated in the case of those whose faith is weak and trembling as the smoking flax.

The workman, 2Ti_2:14-18 : The one anxiety with us all should be to stand approved before God. As the R.V. margin suggests, we must hold a straight course in the word of truth. Our testimony should resemble an undeviating furrow. Let us construct in our life something which will be a permanent addition to the well-being of the world, so that at the last the Master may say that He is satisfied. F.B. Meyer
                                                                      Preach the Word
2Ti 4:1  I charge thee therefore before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom; 
2Ti 4:2  Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine. 

be instant — that is, urgent, earnest, in the whole work of the ministry.
in season, out of season — that is, at all seasons; whether they regard your speaking as seasonable or unseasonable. “Just as the fountains, though none may draw from them, still flow on; and the rivers, though none drink of them, still run; so must we do all on our part in speaking, though none give heed to us” [Chrysostom, Homily, 30, vol. 5., p. 221]. I think with Chrysostom, there is included also the idea of times whether seasonable or unseasonable to Timothy himself; not merely when convenient, but when inconvenient to thee, night as well as day (Act_20:31), in danger as well as in safety, in prison and when doomed to death as well as when at large, not only in church, but everywhere and on all occasions, whenever and wherever the Lord’s work requires it. JFB comm.

2Ti 4:3  For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 

"This is where we are now-  such as will suit their depraved tastes; populus vult decipi, et decipiatur - “the people wish to be deceived, so let them be deceived.” “Like priest, like people” (1Ki_12:31; Hos_4:9).

itching — like to hear teachers who give them mere pleasure (Act_17:19-21), and do not offend by truths grating to their ears. They, as it were, tickle with pleasure the levity of the multitude [Cicero], who come as to a theater to hear what will delight their ears, not to learn [Seneca, Epistles, 10.8] what will do them good. “Itch in the ear is as bad in any other part of the body, and perhaps worse”

2Ti 4:4  And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables. 
2Ti 4:5  But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry. 

But watch thou in all things,.... Relating to himself, his doctrine, and conversation; and to others, to feed the flock of God under his care, to know the state of them, and care for them; to give the time of night, and notice of approaching danger, and see the laws of Christ put in execution; either in allusion to shepherds, who watch over their flocks night and day; or to watchmen that are upon the walls of cities, or go about them; or to the priests and Levites in the temple: John Gill comm.
evangelist — a missionary bishop preacher, and teacher.

fulfil in all its requirements, leaving nothing undone (Act 12:25, Rom 15:19, Col 4:17)

2Ti 4:7  I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: 
2Ti 4:8  Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing. 

In the end, this is my goal, to finish my course knowing I've kept the faith, and not waivered. And, as Paul did in his day-look earnestly for His appearing.
A servant,
Lorna